The paralysis of laziness
The paralysis of laziness
aziness is a psychological matrix that relates to the paralysis of feelings in your system. These paralyzed feelings act as a dam that holds back the body’s energy, preventing it from circulating. Over time, this block in the energetic system starts to create somatic issues—imbalances that show up in the physical body. Sometimes we can treat the energetic body directly by releasing blockages so that the energy can flow. In other cases, the imbalance has registered in the physical body and needs to be treated from the outside in—for instance, with the use of medication.
By catalyzing paralysis in the system, laziness impedes action—action being a response to the stimulus of life. Action is what allows the development of consciousness. For some people, this manifests as total paralysis, and in these cases the individual cannot even leave their bed. In other cases, though the individual has tremendous talent and a great capacity, they can’t put any of this into movement. And then there are cases where a person is so taken by laziness that they do numerous things compulsively—they do everything except the things that they really need to do. In these cases, everything that the individual does is just a reaction, an attempt to run from action, because the actions that they need to take will inevitably force them to touch the point where the feelings became stuck. These feelings are suppressed because dealing with them is so difficult.
“In order to get out of this place, we need to have courage to be with ourselves and stare down our feelings. We have to be willing to feel, because if we aren’t able to feel sadness or hatred, we can’t really feel love or pleasure, either. The channel of feeling is the same.”
At this point, it is very important to understand the difference between action and reaction, as well as the difference between action and compulsive action. Action that comes from presence is a natural response to a request from life. When you are hungry, you eat; when you are tired, you sleep. Reaction, on the other hand, comes from a combination of the past and a noisy mind. In this case, you keep doing and doing things because you just can’t stand to be with yourself. So you eat when you aren’t hungry and stay awake when you really want to sleep.
A person in this state can’t relax because they are bubbling inside. Whether they’re enacting paralysis or compulsion, both are reactions. In true action, we are relaxed; we are at home. We require only a minimal amount of energy and effort in order to put things into action. In contrast, when we’re reacting, we need every bit of energy available—and even then, we often can’t do what we need to do.
I’m reminded of someone I knew who was getting ready to finish a doctoral thesis. Though she had pretty much written the piece in her head, she still needed to sit down in front of the computer and write. All day long, she found more and more things to do; she did everything except sit down in front of the computer to write. In order to get some relief, to avoid what life was asking from her, she continued to occupy herself with other things—things that came from reaction. This person was running away from getting in contact with a core of negative feelings inside of herself. She was paralyzed by what she really needed to do. In other words, it was like she was leaving an entire room locked up inside of her house, accumulating dust, refusing to open the window and let the light in.
Within the realm of the spiritual search, this paralysis can take place by distorting a divine attribute—serenity, for example. At a particular moment of the journey, the evolving entity will experience a particular degree of detachment and renunciation that makes her want to relate with the world less than she had been relating before. As it turns out, many people create a serenity that is in fact a fantasy; they end up deluding themselves. Believing that they are detached, they find themselves reacting to the world, taking on attitudes from the past in order to run away from something. A true state of serenity means we’re in harmony with the flow of life, and the flow of live moves in the direction of health, construction and union. So we have to be willing to get in touch with these negative feeling that are creating paralysis within the system—regardless of the degree of that paralysis, which may range from subtle to obvious.
“All of the answers are inside of us; we just need to dive in and intentionally direct our attention towards identifying the point that needs to be changed.”
In order to get out of this place, we need to have courage to be with ourselves and stare down our feelings. We have to be willing to feel, because if we aren’t able to feel sadness or hatred, we can’t really feel love or pleasure, either. The channel of feeling is the same. If we avoid feeling the negative emotions, we also can’t feel the positive emotions; we can fantasize that we are feeling things, but it’s just a mental process.
We need to evoke the vision of what paralyzes us. We do this by using our conscious will to say, “I want to see this. I commit myself to seeing whatever has become lost inside of me, no matter how much it may hurt my vanity. What is paralyzing me? May it come to the surface.” We need to give this signal to life, because one of the sovereign laws of this plane is free will. This means the divine hierarchies can’t force you into anything—they can only help you and support you to do your part by giving the green light. What is paralyzing you? What is creating this relentless noise, this lack of quiet? What generates this anxiety, this agitation, this expectation? Who do you want to prove things to, and what specifically do you want to prove? Who are you trying to please—and why?
The human being evolves through putting knowledge into practice. I’m referring here to self-knowledge, which helps us to understand how we function. All of the answers are inside of us; we just need to dive in and intentionally direct our attention towards identifying the point that needs to be changed. When we notice a symptom—a symptom of paralysis, compulsion or internal agitation—we can stop and ask, “What am I avoiding? I want to see.” In this moment, we must really watch out for mental tricks, which tell us that we’ve already seen it when in truth we continue reacting, making ourselves channels for negative repetitions. We can really lose ourselves in this self-deception.
So the practice means becoming more and more present in the here and now. It means being more and more at home with yourself—being spontaneous, acting instead of reacting. This is the essence of all spiritual practice. If a practice isn’t bringing you in this direction, perhaps it isn’t a spiritual practice after all—perhaps it’s another thing disguised as spirituality.
In summary, laziness acts as a defense mechanism. It protects the human being from the natural state that we once lost, and which now scares us. Freud was a genius, and he said the repression is the human being’s main poison. When we can’t be natural—when we can’t be who we are—we lost ourselves in the labyrinths of the mind, trying to be something else that isn’t us. And this is what causes all of the feelings of pain that paralyze us and prevent us from seeing.
So let’s continue deepening ourselves into knowledge and practice. It doesn’t matter if the practice is to sing, to dance, or to do japa mala; it matters that that practice is carrying you towards this inner relaxation, this deep state of acceptance and observation. As you are really developing in the practice, you will be able to see everything that is taking place without losing yourself within it. But remember: to develop in the practice, you need to deepen yourself in knowledge, and you do this by looking at the place where you find yourself stuck. This is how you uncover yourself. This is how you uncover love.
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